As I’m sure you know from real life, I had the baby!
Henry is now 3.5 months and is the sweetest little guy. He smiles and coos and makes the best facial expressions and loves to cuddle. Okay, maybe the cuddle part is me.
Henry’s birth was difficult (understatement of 2016) and I had some rare complications afterward, so it was not the easiest of transitions. But our days are gaining some semblance of routine. I love being his mom. I’ve been thinking about sharing more of his birth story and my postpartum experience, but I have yet to figure out how to share about such events on the internet, so we shall see!
Other news I’m sure you’re dying to know:
- I googled “three months postpartum hair loss” today. Our wood floors are covered in my hair no matter how much swiffering I do and it is slightly freaky. But according to google it’s also normal. Thanks, Google.
- We’re looking for a house to buy! I’m pretty sad to leave our beloved 660 square foot city apartment, but I’m excited to move. I get lost daydreaming about how I’m going to rearrange wall art these days.
- I found two pairs of colored Gap jeans (pink and a muted mint) that fit PERFECTLY on ThredUp and I’m quite happy about them. I also got them for about $10 each, which makes me even happier.
- I’m in the middle of reading Found by Micha Boyett and I feel like she is a kindred spirit.
Okay, enough of that and on to what I meant to share with you: the book I read. SO GOOD.
Fit to Burst is more aimed at moms raising toddlers or preschoolers, but I still found the book convicting and encouraging. Jankovic does such a good job challenging moms to high standards while keeping everything grounded in God’s grace. Sometimes I sense the temptation among women (myself most of all) to just empathize in our common struggles without really challenging one another: “We are the sisterhood of the people who know about long days. That is true. But the fact that we all face the same temptations should give us a burning desire to conquer them, not to wallow in them. I write hard-hitting things to myself, because I want to grow in grace.” (page 10)
One of the main things that I took away from the book is her emphasis on doing things and making things happen. I loved this paragraph: “The love of Christ is not the reason that we don’t have to do things. It is the reason we get to do things freely. If you had no gold, there would have been nothing to invest. If your Master gave you gold, you should not be sitting on it.” (page 23). Investing in what God’s given me right now means loving Henry in really tangible, physical ways: nursing him, holding him, giving baths, talking to him, changing his diaper. This is not the look of discipleship that I knew when I worked in ministry, but it’s the primary discipleship that God has called me to in this season.
I also loved this: “The time is now. We need to be now who we want to be then. The future is happening right now. […] Who you want to be and who you are being might be worlds apart. My hope is that instead of this being a sad reminder of what you haven’t done, you can use this encouragement to start doing.” (page 51). She talks about having vision for what you desire for your family. I realized how much I value having dinner together every evening. It’s super simple, but it made me more excited about making dinner for us and using that time to care for one another. I want Henry to grow up with memories of good conversation around the dinner table.
There’s lots more I could say, but sleep and my baby are calling my name and I must go, so goodnight!